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Talking about it helps relieve ure pain.
Just get it all out it will make u feel better.
And oh so many other over-used sentences we use when we have no idea what we are dealing with.
Sadly i must admit to having caved and participated on some occasions to regurgitate these kinds of platitudes.
I chose to stop when i realized that i only wanted to say things i actually believed in.
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Pain and pressure.
Two completely separate things that most people put the same label on.
I've devoted my entire professional life to relieving pain, making things better for people.
I've studied medical treatments, nutrition, ergonomical sleeping positions for patients who doesn't ever get up and and i've taken countless of other courses all designed to help me be strong for someone else, to help when they can't help themselves.
And yet i find myself in the position when i stare horrifying gruesome excruciating pain straight in the eye and all i can do is watch.
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When someone is dying of a disease there are painkillers and all sorts of relieving narcotics that will make it all pass in a haze.
It's still death, but it feels physically better for the person and gives psychological relief to some extent to everybody watching.
That's how nurses survive, we turn complicated situations into some sort of math, if we did something, and we did do all we could, we have the right to still feel alright.
That's why we like diagnoses and treatment plans and discussions on the best spunge-bath techniques and so on.
Makes us feel in control, not hopeless and useless.
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That's why, when i was faced with a disease that isn't even classified as one.
That infiltrates every cell in the body with an intense nauseating ache.
All i did was smile.
And pretend i didn't see it.
Coz' the knowledge that nothing i could have said or done would have helped the slightest bit made me feel very uncomfortable.
And i was too vain to ruin my make-up.